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Having a child means a lot.... it's basically turning your life around and changing some of your perspectives...
Since I knew I'm gonna have a baby, I already started saving for my son. I opened a minor account for him and I try to deposit a certain dollar amount every paycheck...

One of my plans for next year is opening a college fund for him, too...but I am on the lookout since the stock market isn't going to so good right now.

Also, I've been thinking of getting another life insurance plan for me....

Seriously, before, I used to buy stuff for myself... Now, everytime I go, I usually buy stuff for him!.... I rarely go to VS now.... My fave stores now includes, Baby Gap and Children's Place!!!


LOL....

Ang kulit

My toddler is driving me insane!!!!
He's such a chatter box and he's filled with so much goofy things to do like flushing the toilet every 30 seconds, pretending reading his books so loud!, singing while the radio is playing, rides his plane and asks Mommy to push him around!, makes funny faces!, and most of all bugs Mommy to put more bubbles in the bathtub!!!!

On the other hand, it's so pleasant to see him sleep cuddling his little blankie....

What a day.....

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Oh gees!
Yep... still no pictures... The only time I can download pix is when I'm at home. By the time I'm home and starts sitting in front of the PC, Jeremiah won't budge watching the TV while I do my thing. He wants to sit on my lap and grabs the mouse or either starts typing on the keyboard. So to Mr JOBILARK, you can just hang in there and check this site often if ever I get the chance to upload pix ok! :p


Christmas is just around the corner. I am halfway on my shopping list and finally be done this weekend. Although I know it will be a struggle coz the malls are gonna be so crowded! I also finished mailing all the Jeremiah's Christmas postcards to all his ninongs and ninangs... letting them know that they need to buy present for him! LOL... Just kidding!

I'm also gonna be doing lots of cooking and baking this weekend coz of all the parties I have to attend to...

I'm gonna be baking goodies for my coworkers, too...

Shrek

I didn't get the chance to post on my Thanksgiving weekend.
I ate too much that all I wanted is to lie down and sleep!
LOL

Yeah right!
Eversince Jeremiah came in to picture, I've been so sleep deprived it's not funny anymore!
He's been sleeping 6 hours straight now, wakes up at 5 am to drink milk and goes back to sleep til around 8. If I'm lucky, til 9! But I can't wait til he sleeps 8 straight hours or even 12!!!!!

Anyways, he's really starting to get so talkative now!
He can repeat words that you tell him as long as it doest have "R"s or "T"s. LOL
He speaks both English and Tagalog which is really cool.

He's into Shrek now. OMG! he watches it over and over and over and over and over AGAIN!
Yup! We have Shrek 1, 2, and 3. But he's favorite is the 1st one!
I've been thinking of enrolling him to preschool by next year but he's really at this stage where he copies everything!!! and I'm kinda scared that he might just go home one day with an outrageous vocabulary he learned from somebody at school.
He's not even 2 yet and I guess I should work on potty training him 1st before he starts school.

He's such a sweetheart! LOL
Of course I'm gonna brag about my son! LOL

Hopefully, we could go to Disneyland this month. If not, then we'll go on April for his 2nd birthday.

God is good! and He's plans always work out fine!

Busy!

Holidays are coming up and besides being busy as a mommy, I am also busy doing a lot of cooking...
I will try to post pics as soon as I get a chance.. I still haven't uploaded any of the Halloween pics from my camera and Mr JOBILARK has been bugging me about it!

Anyways, I am really really grateful coz I know I will start my 2009 with a blast.
Finally, I was able to find resources that will help me cope with my current situation, emotionally and financially.
I have to do some sacrifices here and there but it's all worth it!

I have to let go os something in order for me to get somethin even better!

It's tough at first because it's a really big decision that I have to stop and think it thoroughly before acting. But man! it was a relief! it feels like thorns in my heart has been pulled out one by one!!!!

It's amazing!

Hopefully, I can post before thanksgiving... I will be on vacation starting Wednesday and I'm not gonna be back to work til Monday!!!

Pre Halloween Entry

I'm gonna be making Jeremiah's costume tonight. He'll be a spider and I will be the web.
There's contest at church for the Harvest Festival on Saturday and we'll be joining...
I'm excited coz last year he was just 9 months and he barely walks so we really didn't enjoy his costume that much...

And for tomorrow night, he'll be Superman. I just bought that at Walmart. We'll be trick or treating around the apartment complex.

I'll be posting pictures next time!

Way to Start My Day

I got this email this morning... this is exactly what I wanna hear. A good start for my morning!

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Chasing love outside the will of God invites the exact opposite of love into our lives. 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8 is picture of God's perfect love. It is patient. It is kind. It does not envy... it is not self-seeking... it does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth... it always protects... it always perseveres. Love never fails. The things we chase in this world are opposite from God's love. False attempts at love will make us impatient, unkind, envious, self-seeking, resistant to the truth, reckless and temporary.1 Corinthians 13 is not a description of what is inherently ours when we fall in love with another person. It is a description of God's love. This kind of love can be ours as we become more Christ-like. It is never focused inwardly. It is never about what I'm going to get from another person. It is deciding that this is the kind of love I will give away.
Friends, can we make a commitment together today? If something or somebody in this world seems appealing enough to draw our hearts away from the truth of God, let’s commit to being women who will readily admit it to another godly woman and ask for help.

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Starting to be an active blogger!

Well, I've been an active blogger... but lately it's just so hard to catch up with things.. if you know what I mean. Working full time, and being a mommy full time is a 24/7 job!
By the time I sit in front of the PC, my son will also start pulling my fingers to where he wants me to be, in other words, do some "errands" for him.

Anyways, I just want to be the best mom I can be...

But promise, I'll go ahead and try to the best of my POWER to be as active as I used to be.

On the other hand, Halloween is coming up and Jeremiah will dress up as SUPERMAN. LOL
We well be out trick or treating around the apartment complex, with his cute jack-o-lantern bag!

Also, I wanna bring him to Disneyland this Holiday season...

So many things to look forward to...

Although, I'm still bothered with what has been going on with me and his dad, life my go on.. and Jeremiah doesn't need to suffer what chaos has been going between his parents, right?

Messed up Computer

My computer at home was a mess...I am so close of throwing it out!!!
I wanted to upload some pictures of Jeremiah! He's so silly now! He just turned 18 mos and men! he's such a handful!!!
He's so cute though coz you can just hear him singing while he's playing his toys...

He enjoys Pooh, Mickey Mouse and the backyardigans!

We might go to the zoo this weekend coz I'm gonna have a long weekend since it's Columbus Day.
Time goes by so fast... He was just teenie tiny baby now he's already a toddler!!!!

He's my greatest achievement!
Raising a kid solo flight? Just crazy but the happiness is just so indescribable

The economy

Well, the US Presidential election is just around the corner and debates from the Republicans versus the Democrats are in the air. I still don't know who to vote for since our economy right now is in such a big mess!
I can't believe that Washington Mutual's (where I work) were the 2nd largest failure in banking history after the Depression??? Holy Moly! That's how bad the economy right now! Thank God JP Morgan Chase bought us or else I will be joining the huge number of uneployed in the country as of now.
I wonder if it'll be better next year. Some people are still speculating that this recession that has been going on will still continue next year.
I never thought that the US government will spend that much money to bail out the ailing stock market.

I've been learning so much these past weeks regarding stock markets, investments, and more stuff about money. At least working here at the bank makes me knowledgeable about the current situation in the market.

I know some friends of mine struggling to fight the repossesion of their homes. Can you believe that? That's how bad it is...

I now finally understand why we didn't get the house two years ago coz we might go through the same problem as my friends' are right now.

I'm just hoping for the best and hopefully to get more raise! LOL

Baby Blues???

I was going crazy last week coz I really have no idea how am I gonna handle this situation that I'm in...
I sent a "super extra sad" text message to Jovee coz I know his quick replying power! Thanks, Jovee! btw. Anyways, he did respond back with a very encouraging words that helped me lift my spirit.
But the other thing though, I sent a text message to my ex who's in the Philippines and I dunno if that's right. And surprisingly he did respond quickly as a thunder. It's just that I am so not ready to what he told me.
I'm trying to fix my life that has been ruined.. and i'ts hard if that you can't get rid of the person that you're trying to avoid! do you know what I mean????

I sounded so confusing huh?

I just wanted to do something for myself because I've been neglecting what my wants since all the chaos has started. But I just can't coz I feel like this person is so holding me back! and I hate it so much! I feel so paralyzed....I tried talking to him decently so I can do my thing but he won't cooperate and that kills me.

I am inside this shell and I wanted to get out!

Reason

I've been thinking.... a lot
What's the purpose of blogging anymore when all I can post are problems and difficulties in life.

It seems like my life has been so loaded with problems.
My day to day living has been a struggle and I'm having a hard time to see the light anymore!

I just wanted to run away and just go ahead and start from scratch...
Yet no matter I try to avoid it, the more it keeps on piling up.

I tried facing it but I can't stand dealing with it anymore!

I wish I could just say what I wanted to happen and suddenly everything will jsut be in its proper place...

But there's no EASY botton to slam....

I have no idea how to solve this anymore :(

Aaargh!

Aargh!!!

South Beach Diet

I started doing the phase one of the South Beach Diet last Friday and so far so good.
I really have to do this or lose weight coz I'm not getting any younger no more... Yes! still young at heart but I really have to be very careful now.
I wanted to manage and live a healthy lifestyle. My dad suffered form aneurysm... My lola had diabetes... and it's scary when I think that those diseases really runs through the family.

I borrowed some books,too regarding eating and living healthy...

Anyways, Jeremiah is turning 15 months in a couple of days and it's exciting to see how he developed from this really tiny baby to a very young toddler. He's so active now and very talkative... I'm preparing myself to the point when he gets to ask soooooo much questions!... Since it's summer here, he enjoys going to the pool, the beach and running around the park!...I looked at all his activitied as a form of my daily exercise! Running and chasing this kid!

It's tough to be a single mom but everytime my son hugs me and kisses me as soon as I arrived from work, it just melts my heart and burns all the stress I have that day!... He just started screaming "MAMA, MAMA" and it's funny coz you can hear him 10 yards away!!!

His dad still haven't seen him for 3 months now and it's really a day to day argument!...Sometimes, I just want him to be out of my son's life coz my son doesn't even know him at all, he's just a complete stranger.... But I'm still trying to be fair as far as I could coz he's still the dad and he shares 50% of his genes to my son!

I have to get back to work...
Tata!

Planning....

I've been really comtemplating these past few months about what to do with my life. I have a son and every decision I make revolves around him.

I took the apot for the nursing program that will start on August 18 but I am going through financial chaos right now (which in fact is a different story!)....

Moreover, I spoke to an AirForce recruiter but I am kinda hesitant to leave my son. I have a brother who's in the Navy and he leaves his family for months when he gets deployed...

Lastly, I'm thinking of going back to school to get my master's in Social work/Public health. I for sure will be granted financial aid and I can also get a student loan coz I'm a single parent but the thing here though is time...Juggling school, work and single parenthood...I don't want my son to experience whatever is left with mommy, if you know what I mean...

Hmpf!

*buraot* <----- sa work!
Just opened the gate and BAM!!! there you go, *yak* *yak* yak*
Can I just put my purse down, take a deep breath and then you can go ahead and start what I need to do for you???? Gees!

Under construction

whew! I finally was able to sign back in here in blogger... I even forgot what my old blogger account was... Anyways, I will be updating this site more often.. I promise!!!!

Life has been tough I'm telling you and being able to express my thoughts and stuff even through writing helped me alot...so now I'm back!