Starting to be an active blogger!

Well, I've been an active blogger... but lately it's just so hard to catch up with things.. if you know what I mean. Working full time, and being a mommy full time is a 24/7 job!
By the time I sit in front of the PC, my son will also start pulling my fingers to where he wants me to be, in other words, do some "errands" for him.

Anyways, I just want to be the best mom I can be...

But promise, I'll go ahead and try to the best of my POWER to be as active as I used to be.

On the other hand, Halloween is coming up and Jeremiah will dress up as SUPERMAN. LOL
We well be out trick or treating around the apartment complex, with his cute jack-o-lantern bag!

Also, I wanna bring him to Disneyland this Holiday season...

So many things to look forward to...

Although, I'm still bothered with what has been going on with me and his dad, life my go on.. and Jeremiah doesn't need to suffer what chaos has been going between his parents, right?

Messed up Computer

My computer at home was a mess...I am so close of throwing it out!!!
I wanted to upload some pictures of Jeremiah! He's so silly now! He just turned 18 mos and men! he's such a handful!!!
He's so cute though coz you can just hear him singing while he's playing his toys...

He enjoys Pooh, Mickey Mouse and the backyardigans!

We might go to the zoo this weekend coz I'm gonna have a long weekend since it's Columbus Day.
Time goes by so fast... He was just teenie tiny baby now he's already a toddler!!!!

He's my greatest achievement!
Raising a kid solo flight? Just crazy but the happiness is just so indescribable

The economy

Well, the US Presidential election is just around the corner and debates from the Republicans versus the Democrats are in the air. I still don't know who to vote for since our economy right now is in such a big mess!
I can't believe that Washington Mutual's (where I work) were the 2nd largest failure in banking history after the Depression??? Holy Moly! That's how bad the economy right now! Thank God JP Morgan Chase bought us or else I will be joining the huge number of uneployed in the country as of now.
I wonder if it'll be better next year. Some people are still speculating that this recession that has been going on will still continue next year.
I never thought that the US government will spend that much money to bail out the ailing stock market.

I've been learning so much these past weeks regarding stock markets, investments, and more stuff about money. At least working here at the bank makes me knowledgeable about the current situation in the market.

I know some friends of mine struggling to fight the repossesion of their homes. Can you believe that? That's how bad it is...

I now finally understand why we didn't get the house two years ago coz we might go through the same problem as my friends' are right now.

I'm just hoping for the best and hopefully to get more raise! LOL

Baby Blues???

I was going crazy last week coz I really have no idea how am I gonna handle this situation that I'm in...
I sent a "super extra sad" text message to Jovee coz I know his quick replying power! Thanks, Jovee! btw. Anyways, he did respond back with a very encouraging words that helped me lift my spirit.
But the other thing though, I sent a text message to my ex who's in the Philippines and I dunno if that's right. And surprisingly he did respond quickly as a thunder. It's just that I am so not ready to what he told me.
I'm trying to fix my life that has been ruined.. and i'ts hard if that you can't get rid of the person that you're trying to avoid! do you know what I mean????

I sounded so confusing huh?

I just wanted to do something for myself because I've been neglecting what my wants since all the chaos has started. But I just can't coz I feel like this person is so holding me back! and I hate it so much! I feel so paralyzed....I tried talking to him decently so I can do my thing but he won't cooperate and that kills me.

I am inside this shell and I wanted to get out!

Reason

I've been thinking.... a lot
What's the purpose of blogging anymore when all I can post are problems and difficulties in life.

It seems like my life has been so loaded with problems.
My day to day living has been a struggle and I'm having a hard time to see the light anymore!

I just wanted to run away and just go ahead and start from scratch...
Yet no matter I try to avoid it, the more it keeps on piling up.

I tried facing it but I can't stand dealing with it anymore!

I wish I could just say what I wanted to happen and suddenly everything will jsut be in its proper place...

But there's no EASY botton to slam....

I have no idea how to solve this anymore :(

Aaargh!

Aargh!!!

South Beach Diet

I started doing the phase one of the South Beach Diet last Friday and so far so good.
I really have to do this or lose weight coz I'm not getting any younger no more... Yes! still young at heart but I really have to be very careful now.
I wanted to manage and live a healthy lifestyle. My dad suffered form aneurysm... My lola had diabetes... and it's scary when I think that those diseases really runs through the family.

I borrowed some books,too regarding eating and living healthy...

Anyways, Jeremiah is turning 15 months in a couple of days and it's exciting to see how he developed from this really tiny baby to a very young toddler. He's so active now and very talkative... I'm preparing myself to the point when he gets to ask soooooo much questions!... Since it's summer here, he enjoys going to the pool, the beach and running around the park!...I looked at all his activitied as a form of my daily exercise! Running and chasing this kid!

It's tough to be a single mom but everytime my son hugs me and kisses me as soon as I arrived from work, it just melts my heart and burns all the stress I have that day!... He just started screaming "MAMA, MAMA" and it's funny coz you can hear him 10 yards away!!!

His dad still haven't seen him for 3 months now and it's really a day to day argument!...Sometimes, I just want him to be out of my son's life coz my son doesn't even know him at all, he's just a complete stranger.... But I'm still trying to be fair as far as I could coz he's still the dad and he shares 50% of his genes to my son!

I have to get back to work...
Tata!